I can’t wait to meet you [poem]

dearest love
I spend more time thinking about you
than I do writing poetry
I think about how
I won’t love you until we’ve become close friends
but we can’t become friends at all
until I talk to people about things other than work
but I can’t talk to strangers
until I lower these walls I’ve built
from my own wreckage
but I’m not ready to take down the walls
and be exposed
I realize
this is a temporary problem
that eventually my natural need to socialize
will win out over my fear of
starting over
my too big heart will grab onto your smile
and love you without my say so
sweetie
you will find your way into my life somehow
even if I can’t imagine
the where or when or how
right now
I can’t wait to meet you