invisible [poem]

have you ever been invisible
ever slipped through the cracks on purpose
and poured yourself out
right under their noses
unseen
and happily overlooked?
have you ever wished yourself out of sight
fear crawling across your skin
anxiety powering your ability to hide
in plain sight?
have you ever chosen silence
cloaked yourself in its translucency
and faded out of focus in the loud crowds?
have you ever stopped existing by choice
watched people walk by
without acknowledging your presence
and found relief in being
invisible again?
it feels like safety and magic and
nothingness
sweet nothingness