no need for humans [poem]

I can spend
up to 12 hours without human interaction
before I start to fidget
24 hours
before the need to see other humans
outweighs the desire to be left alone at home
it was easier when I had friends
people with varied schedules that led to
at least one somebody being available
at any given time
it was easier when there were
familiar haunting grounds
places I could enter with strangers
soaking up the energies of
being around other people
without having to be with other people directly
some days
I feel like an introverted energy vampire
with social anxiety
like this need for humans is based on instinct
rather than interest
like I’d gladly avoid other humans completely
if I wouldn’t starve a day later