I’m afraid of being invisible
my heart an open field
without any wildflowers to show
for all this rain
I’m afraid of being the outsider
my ability to make friends
a sad and rusty tool on the shelf
I’m afraid of being ignored
my mask hiding me in plain sight
and I can’t remove it
not without inviting complication into my life
I’m afraid of being free
maybe this escape to the coast
has removed the love from my life
by virtue of long miles and lost moments
I’m afraid of all this
but I keep hoping it’s all in my head
I gave my life a hard reset
and that just takes time to start again
afraid [poem]
