I’m going to… [poem]

I’m going to find myself
I’m going to learn half a dozen languages
including how to speak
with only my hands
and silence
I’m going to write
my darkest secrets and greatest lessons
in blood for everyone to read
I’m going to cook the world
one country at a time
until I can taste the entire earth on my tongue
I’m going to dig my toes into cold beach sand
on autumn days that make people
question my sanity
I’m going to let the silence of a simple life
swallow me
whole
until my thoughts stop making these
strange echoes
in my head
and then
I’m going to be happy